I was thinking just a few seconds ago, about Jesus, about my life in Him, His life in me, what it means, what it has meant for me and what it will inevitably mean...
It's so weird that after a whole year walking with Him, when I try to put words to what He has done in my life, there simply aren't any, I don't think that there will ever be a description accurate enough or strong enough to cover what He is to me.
It's the strangest thing, that a sinner, someone so wrong as me could find something, someone so right, and have that Person love me back. I always see girls my age practically overwhelmed when they get a boy's attention, that's nothing compared to this. Loving Him is simply inexplicable.
I am not perfect in His eyes, I never have been and I never will be, but sometimes I can actually feel the love He has for me, I swear that I can feel His eyes on me as I go through the day, I can sense the love and utter devotion that His gaze holds.
To think that the person I love the most is also the person I have never seen, but it's like our love is on a whole 'nother level, it's beyond my senses, it's beyond natural laws. Truthfully, there is nothing natural about Jehovah, the one who calls the things that aren't as though they were.
I just want to live in this love forever, seriously, I don't see myself ever getting tired of Him, it's the most amazing adventure in the world, though it can be hard sometimes because I am in the flesh afterall. Life, people, throw so much junk at you sometimes, I am not blind to this fact, it's just that well, the Light of the world is so much more beautiful and so much more real to me.
I always want my life to be this way - that if you took away everything I hold dear; earthly possessions, my family, my gifts, everything I know to be mine, that at the core of my life, there would just be Jesus.
I'm a simple person and I don't need much. My number one necessity for life is Jesus, 'nuff said.
I can be very easily misunderstood by some and a lot of the time, I can't figure myself out but I do know this much about myself, I am entirely consumed in Jesus. His love is like an ocean, swallowing me and engulfing me more and more with each day, His love is everything and everything is nothing without Him.
This is the truth for me, I hope you know Him, I love people and there is nothing that I wish more for you than for you to have something like this with Him because let's face it, His love is where life begins.
I'm truly happy. My life is not perfect, a lot of things are upside down, I am in situations that challenge my faith but I have never been happier.
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